Do not look at yourself with disgust, you are a gift to this earth. You are beautiful, you are a light, an energy, an essence. You are nature herself.
I don’t know if she’ll even read this but I’m going to write it !!! Fairy you saved my life …I still haven’t gotten the chance to thank you but I know some day I will ! Losing you and our friendship which I considered one of my most important of my life destroyed me to the point of near suicide !!! And it wasn’t all because of you , it was part of it but way deeper than that !! You were just my reality check and the ultimate case of me pushing away the people who were always there for me and loved me !!! Where ever you are out there I just want you to know I would have and could have never done this without you !!!!!!!!! I love you with all the pure honest and caring love in my heart !!!! You might not see things the way I do yet but we met for a reason !!! I will always be here to love protect and guide you in the right direction !!! And not for my sexual desires or bullshit lustful thoughts …you were a lost young beautiful sad girl and I took advantage of that!! I will never do that to you or anyone again as long as I may live !!!!! Today i have 90’days clean !!! Holy fuck …I wish I could’ve spoke to you and heard your voice today just to know you’re ok …I write this now with tears falling off my face !!! I worry about you and pray for you every morning and every night !!! IN CLOSING CAITLIN …THANK YOU FOR WALKING AWAY BECAUSE FOR A WHILE THERE YOU WERE MY ONLY FRIEND AND I DIDN’T HIT ROCK BOTTOM TIL I LOST YOU !!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU SO HARD … YOU ARE ME BEST FRIEND I’VE EVER KNOWN AND ILL MISS YOU EVERYDAY I DON’T HEAR YOUR SWEET VOICE !!! PEACE AND LOVE !!! …oh and ps …no cigarettes since dec 28 …hit me up anytime ANYDAY